One Week Ago Today...

at 8:00 a.m on a Friday morning...

a Dr. walked into my room,

looked at a few pictures of my brain on a computer screen,

turned around and looked at me quietly for a moment,

before saying

"You already know, don't you"?

Yes, I knew.

I have MS...had suspected it for a few weeks...

and now this doctor was giving me the confirmation he thought I needed...

but I needed none.

God had already told me...

maybe so I could be prepared,

maybe so I could prepare others...

in any case, I knew. 

There...I have been wanting...and needing to say this for a whole week now.

It isn't the end of the world...

so don't feel sorry for me...

just pray for me.

Don't forget about me...
If I can't answer a phone call, letter or email right away,
I won't.
But you are NOT bothering me.

Just pray for me.

Because I am 46 (okay, 47 in a month;)

I have a lot to do in life...

and a lot of people I want to share it with...

so just please  pray.

I think it is important to share my story...

~for my precious, beautiful girls and my wonderful husband

who are on this journey that we never thought we would take together.

~for my family, who love me and care for me and should know my story.

~for the wonderful friends I have met and some I have never met...

but who make me feel loved and who are praying for all of us...

~for all the others who have MS or another disease,

or who know of someone who does and would like a friend or someone to encourage them

along the way...

I have to share my story.

When I start, I will post it here on my blog and will also

have a special tab at the top of this blog directing others to the post.

 I know that many come to blogs to laugh, be inspired, get a recipe or decorating tip...

and not necessarily to read about someone else's problems.

So...I am trying to figure out the best way to do this,
because I know I am supposed to share this...
the sweet moments...
the beautiful moments...
the funny moments...
the learning moments...
and the scary moments too.

Somewhere, somehow, I will tell the story of a so-called "Cool Mom"
(not my words, ok?;)

who thought she was doing everything right

and had her life all planned out...

until she remembered that it isn't about her plans...

but God's.

I always need to remember that my most loyal followers and readers

are my own 2 sweet girls.

I kind of think of my blog "Fairytales and Grace"

as a kind, sweet, pretty, special place.
I'm so happy that THEY love it.
Is this where I should tell my story, as well as all of the other things I
blog about?
Hmmm...
I don't know.

Obviously!!!

But I know one thing,

I have to share my story.

There are so many wonderful people in this world.

Don't ever forget it.

If you, do, call me.

I will show you my "HOPE" scrapbook,

just filled with messages from people all over the world.

And you will know that there are always people who care.
And as I have also learned,
there are people who are much worse off.
And all we can do is be there for each other,
be grateful for every little thing and every moment that we have...
and Pray!

 And to my girls...
I'm okay!
You're okay!
We are ALL going to be okay!
I can't make promises about details in the future...
but we have each other...
so we are OKAY!
I'm still the same tutu-making mom...
the same mom who wants her girls to go after their dreams...
and the same mom who wants to visit the Paris Flea Markets...
with her Shabby Chicks.

To those of you who have been praying for me...
THANK YOU!!!

I promise to break it up a bit...lighten things up...
and tomorrow is Pink Saturday!
(And by the way, my Pink post will be coming LATER on Pink Saturday, now:)

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE,
Suzanne